Hope is a funny thing. It can be destroyed oh so easily and is usually pretty easy to gain as long as fear is not part of the equation. It is with great hope, that I hope to one day be making enough money from my online endeavors to have financial freedom and to have my husband working at my side. In fact it is my hope that that is done by 2011. However, there are days when it feels like it won't happen. Those are the days when there isn't even a penny worth of gain and I am tired and the baby is being a pain and nothing is getting done. Today isn't quite one of those days. I have made a few pennies and gotten a few things done. But it just doesn't seem to go very well. Now my husband wants a weekly meeting complete with progress reports. I know that this is because with him working sixty hours a week he has no idea what's going on, but it also means more work for me. I have to figure out how to present him with a lot of different information. But I will, so that he can be involved.
Well...like I have said before, that is the boring recount of my dull life!
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
From the Land of Crazies
I sit here and type. It is the first day after my company has left. I had a wonderful time, but it was also a little crazy, staying up late and getting up early. Today I am tired and don't feel so well, and my son is feeling like a lot of work. It feels as though this would be easier in the other room, but then I would be using pen and paper and typing it up later, which I hate doing.
What can I say?
Today, I don't feel much like thinking. Which is sad. It is thinking that the majority of my work is derived on. It is thinking that lets me post to Thought Provokers and This Side of That. It is thinking that lets me come up with additional pages for Falon of the Tower and new articles for Helium.
But today, I feel like napping.
I must say that desperation causes us to do things that we hate. My husband was working a job where he just barely met our requirements for basic survival. Because of that I took up dog walking. I only got one dog, and then stopped looking for more. Now I am stuck walking Moses Monday through Friday, because of my desperation. I could quit, but it was something that Moses' owner asked me about a few times because she was worried that it would solve her problem and Moses would get used to it and then it would just be gone. Well Moses is used to it, he is ready to go when I get there now, and I hate it. I hate the responsibility it is on my time. I hate having to schedule my life around when I need to walk the dog. I think...I will say something about desperation in the Thought Provokers.
What do you think?
What can I say?
Today, I don't feel much like thinking. Which is sad. It is thinking that the majority of my work is derived on. It is thinking that lets me post to Thought Provokers and This Side of That. It is thinking that lets me come up with additional pages for Falon of the Tower and new articles for Helium.
But today, I feel like napping.
I must say that desperation causes us to do things that we hate. My husband was working a job where he just barely met our requirements for basic survival. Because of that I took up dog walking. I only got one dog, and then stopped looking for more. Now I am stuck walking Moses Monday through Friday, because of my desperation. I could quit, but it was something that Moses' owner asked me about a few times because she was worried that it would solve her problem and Moses would get used to it and then it would just be gone. Well Moses is used to it, he is ready to go when I get there now, and I hate it. I hate the responsibility it is on my time. I hate having to schedule my life around when I need to walk the dog. I think...I will say something about desperation in the Thought Provokers.
What do you think?
Monday, August 27, 2007
Long Time
I am delighted to have had my friend here a week (she leaves early tomorrow morning), but it has effected my writing and my earnings. Additionally I kinda miss having time alone, time with my husband, and not having to worry about what someone else is doing or wants to do. I am sure that she is glad to be heading home to, she is missing her husband and life with a three month old is always easier at home.
This morning I had to get up at four thirty and drive my husband to work so that I could take my mom to the doctor this afternoon. He works a half an hour away, and I am feeling particularly tired having spent an hour on the road this morning. I have been sleeping in since Tanya got here, been staying up later...
It has been a good week, but I have missed you all, as well as the readers to my other blogs and our website. My newest project has been to work on my myspace profile. You are welcome to check me out there...Aiden of the Tower
This morning I had to get up at four thirty and drive my husband to work so that I could take my mom to the doctor this afternoon. He works a half an hour away, and I am feeling particularly tired having spent an hour on the road this morning. I have been sleeping in since Tanya got here, been staying up later...
It has been a good week, but I have missed you all, as well as the readers to my other blogs and our website. My newest project has been to work on my myspace profile. You are welcome to check me out there...Aiden of the Tower
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Red
| You Are a Red Crayon |
 Your world is colored with bright, vivid, wild colors. You have a deep, complex personality - and you are always expressing something about yourself. Bold and dominant, you are a natural leader. You have an energy that is intense... and sometimes overwhelming. Your reaction to everything tends to be strong. You are the master of love-hate relationships. Your color wheel opposite is green. Green people are way too mellow to understand what drives your energy. |
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Should be interesting
It should be interesting to see how much I get done this next week. My friend and her three month old daughter have arrived. While they are both sleeping comfortably right now, I am here writing. However, I don't know how much I will get done since I usually write on and off all day as time and Marcus (my one year old) allow. I have been trying to write at least one post a day (though yesterday I cheated on most of my blogs). I did get a couple of extra pages done on our website (Chupacabra, Luvs, PayPerPost, and InboxDollars). It felt like a pretty good day.
I have had a headache for three days, or rather I had a headache for three days. Finally I am free. That has made it hard to be super productive. I just haven't felt all that good at all, but now I am doing better. Actually today I feel really good.
Last night my father-in-law talked to me about a very interesting situation. They are house hunting and found a house they can't quite afford. It is a three bedroom, two bathroom, two living area house. They tell me that there are two master bedrooms which is how a three bedroom will be big enough for six kids and two adults (all four girls would share the second master). There are several "out" buildings including a shop and a single wide trailer. My father-in-law would like to rent us the trailer and the shop for less then we are paying here. This would let us save money and them make a better offer on the house. The trailer has been gutted so it is like a completely fresh slate (which could be good or bad). There are two baths and a kitchen still in tack. I have no idea how big it is. My father-in-law kept saying standard trailer size. Fourteen feet wide is standard (though they can go up to sixteen feet), but there is no "standard" for length. We could save three to five hundred dollars the way he was talking though, and that would be nice.
Well...till next time (which is hopefully soon).
I have had a headache for three days, or rather I had a headache for three days. Finally I am free. That has made it hard to be super productive. I just haven't felt all that good at all, but now I am doing better. Actually today I feel really good.
Last night my father-in-law talked to me about a very interesting situation. They are house hunting and found a house they can't quite afford. It is a three bedroom, two bathroom, two living area house. They tell me that there are two master bedrooms which is how a three bedroom will be big enough for six kids and two adults (all four girls would share the second master). There are several "out" buildings including a shop and a single wide trailer. My father-in-law would like to rent us the trailer and the shop for less then we are paying here. This would let us save money and them make a better offer on the house. The trailer has been gutted so it is like a completely fresh slate (which could be good or bad). There are two baths and a kitchen still in tack. I have no idea how big it is. My father-in-law kept saying standard trailer size. Fourteen feet wide is standard (though they can go up to sixteen feet), but there is no "standard" for length. We could save three to five hundred dollars the way he was talking though, and that would be nice.
Well...till next time (which is hopefully soon).
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Monday, August 20, 2007
Getting it in Order, Plus the Christmas House
The weekend was a getting life together type of weekend. We worked on the house and this and that. Went window shopping. Now that we will have some money to spend a little to fix of our house and our lives. What was most important, how much does it cost, what would we use it for, would it fit in our little tiny apartment?
Somethings have a different priority then other things. We could use a laptop for my husband to use to write on at night, a better desk chair (this one was fifty dollars from Walmart and kinda sucks, I was hoping it was like our old one which rocked (looked like it) but it wasn't), and now we will have a full size bathroom and the baby will have a bedroom and not be living in our closet (as soon as my mom moves out). Deep breath. But beyond that it was just fun to dream of what will happen in the next five years or so.
Saturday we went house hunting with my father-in-law. Not for us, that will be a few years from now, but for them. It would appear that they have finally sold the house in Michigan (they have been trying since February) and will be needing a house down here fairly quickly. If they have sold the house, they have eight days to move out from the end of the closing. They have movers moving them from Michigan to Texas (company paid), but they will have to have somewhere to move. Right now my father-in-law is living in a one bedroom corporate apartment, but there are nine or ten of them (depends on if my oldest brother-in-law moves with them) and they won't all fit in his apartment. Of course we figure that if we have to, then three of them can camp out here. Anyway, we went house hunting. Most of the houses in the area are in the 200+ range and the market is really tight. They don't want to pay that much. So they found one on the market listed for 155. We went and saw it. The bottom of the half as the vertical metal siding used in pole barns and some commercial buildings. It is green. The top half is a plastic shingle in red. Yep, no kidding, it's the Christmas house. Of course half of the bottom of the building (the whole thing is 4200 sq ft) is all garage with huge doors (looks like someone was planning on using it for commercial purposes). There are no interior walls. It looks like they stopped after putting in the insulation. There are no windows on two sides of the building which I am guessing makes it dark. Well never the less, this building has a huge amount of potential, with a ton of work, and no place to live till it is done, or at least part of it is done.
I , of course want it, it has a huge potential to fix it, change it and resell it for a decent chunk of change. If you bought it for less then 155...and had the money to fix it (completely). It comes with one acre of land that has nothing in it, fresh pallet, other then those Christmas colors marring the sky. They would have to go!
Somethings have a different priority then other things. We could use a laptop for my husband to use to write on at night, a better desk chair (this one was fifty dollars from Walmart and kinda sucks, I was hoping it was like our old one which rocked (looked like it) but it wasn't), and now we will have a full size bathroom and the baby will have a bedroom and not be living in our closet (as soon as my mom moves out). Deep breath. But beyond that it was just fun to dream of what will happen in the next five years or so.
Saturday we went house hunting with my father-in-law. Not for us, that will be a few years from now, but for them. It would appear that they have finally sold the house in Michigan (they have been trying since February) and will be needing a house down here fairly quickly. If they have sold the house, they have eight days to move out from the end of the closing. They have movers moving them from Michigan to Texas (company paid), but they will have to have somewhere to move. Right now my father-in-law is living in a one bedroom corporate apartment, but there are nine or ten of them (depends on if my oldest brother-in-law moves with them) and they won't all fit in his apartment. Of course we figure that if we have to, then three of them can camp out here. Anyway, we went house hunting. Most of the houses in the area are in the 200+ range and the market is really tight. They don't want to pay that much. So they found one on the market listed for 155. We went and saw it. The bottom of the half as the vertical metal siding used in pole barns and some commercial buildings. It is green. The top half is a plastic shingle in red. Yep, no kidding, it's the Christmas house. Of course half of the bottom of the building (the whole thing is 4200 sq ft) is all garage with huge doors (looks like someone was planning on using it for commercial purposes). There are no interior walls. It looks like they stopped after putting in the insulation. There are no windows on two sides of the building which I am guessing makes it dark. Well never the less, this building has a huge amount of potential, with a ton of work, and no place to live till it is done, or at least part of it is done.
I , of course want it, it has a huge potential to fix it, change it and resell it for a decent chunk of change. If you bought it for less then 155...and had the money to fix it (completely). It comes with one acre of land that has nothing in it, fresh pallet, other then those Christmas colors marring the sky. They would have to go!
Saturday, August 18, 2007
When I Wrote...
When I wrote "boring" and "dull" in my title I meant it. All week I sit at my computer and type, writing things from the heart, mind, and soul. I take care of my one year old son. I cook, do laundry, and sometimes pick up (I am not the best of housekeepers, especially when I have a decent excuse to do something else). Last weekend I sat here and did the same thing that I do everyday. Then we worked on cleaning the house most of the day Sunday. Saturday my husband read his book (he seems trapped in Harry Potter). This week I want to know what we can do, he wants to read his book and clean on the house. Yep, I am stuck in a world that is the same day in and day out. I have no excitement, no entertainment, no fun. I guess I am supposed to thrive off the fact that I have more and more people reading the words I write.
But somedays that just isn't that exciting.
But somedays that just isn't that exciting.
Friday, August 17, 2007
Pay Day
So, since coming to Texas my husband has bounced around from job to job. It felt like we would spend more time job hunting then him actually going to work. First he did Schwan's, but it wasn't working out as he moved into more and more commission and less and less gurenteed paid (they have a step down program that stepped a lot faster then they originally made it sound). Then he became an electrician helper. It paid less then we wanted, had no benefits, but he could work his way up over time. The guy, however did not want to teach him the construction aspect of it, and it was something he had never done before. So, he was let go. Then we went a week while waiting for the perfect job to come along. And it did. He is making 12 an hour, will have benefits after 90 days, is working a ton of hours (which means a hefty pay check) and is still home by six thirty (at the latest) and has Saturday and Sunday off. Of course, now we get up at four thirty in the morning to make sure he gets off to work on time.
While that is a new way of life, we are adjusting. This being week two (and Friday) though, my husband was saying that he wanted to set the alarm for four thirty tomorrow so that he could shut it off and roll over.
Well anyway, we haven't had a paycheck for all of August. But we will, next week. It's a two week pay cycle and it takes three weeks to get the first check. Which is kinda owie. But we are looking forward to having money again! (Wouldn't anyone?)
While that is a new way of life, we are adjusting. This being week two (and Friday) though, my husband was saying that he wanted to set the alarm for four thirty tomorrow so that he could shut it off and roll over.
Well anyway, we haven't had a paycheck for all of August. But we will, next week. It's a two week pay cycle and it takes three weeks to get the first check. Which is kinda owie. But we are looking forward to having money again! (Wouldn't anyone?)
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Blog Roll
We are doing a quick blog roll for all of you-
As of right this second, these are our blogs and our website. If you are interested in reading more of our works...
Our Website-Our website is a non-traditional conglomerate of everything that we enjoy and think about...okay well not everything, but someday it will be everything. Right now it isn't. But you should still have a look-see, you might find something that interests you.
Our Blogs-
The Boring Recount of My Dull Life-Have you heard the story? Seen the movie? Not yet, huh...well you can start with the blog...who knows, maybe I will be famous some day, and you can say, hey, I used to read her blog!
Thought Provokers-You know, there just aren't enough thinkers in the world. Those of us who like to think...don't do it enough! Here are our thought provokers.
1001 Things I Hate about Living with My Mom-Nothing like a good catchy title. My mom has moved in with us, and is driving me crazy!
The Fattest Diary-I am trying to loose weight and more importantly get healthy, it sucks. If you could possibly understand, here's the blog for you.
Beautiful Beads-I love working with beads, and this is for all those who might love it or already love it too!
Zero to Six-This is our newest blog, about how we went from nothing to something. Of course we have to make it to something still...but see our struggles, see our faith, see our progress.
The Mommy Page-All mommy's have a busy life. Here is where I share about mine, as well as things I have been thinking about.
The Sign Language Blog-Last but not Least is the Sign Language blog, here I will be sharing about sign language, the deaf, the Deaf culture, history of the d/Deaf, and hearing loss with you. It is a fascinating topic.
As of right this second, these are our blogs and our website. If you are interested in reading more of our works...
Our Website-Our website is a non-traditional conglomerate of everything that we enjoy and think about...okay well not everything, but someday it will be everything. Right now it isn't. But you should still have a look-see, you might find something that interests you.
Our Blogs-
The Boring Recount of My Dull Life-Have you heard the story? Seen the movie? Not yet, huh...well you can start with the blog...who knows, maybe I will be famous some day, and you can say, hey, I used to read her blog!
Thought Provokers-You know, there just aren't enough thinkers in the world. Those of us who like to think...don't do it enough! Here are our thought provokers.
1001 Things I Hate about Living with My Mom-Nothing like a good catchy title. My mom has moved in with us, and is driving me crazy!
The Fattest Diary-I am trying to loose weight and more importantly get healthy, it sucks. If you could possibly understand, here's the blog for you.
Beautiful Beads-I love working with beads, and this is for all those who might love it or already love it too!
Zero to Six-This is our newest blog, about how we went from nothing to something. Of course we have to make it to something still...but see our struggles, see our faith, see our progress.
The Mommy Page-All mommy's have a busy life. Here is where I share about mine, as well as things I have been thinking about.
The Sign Language Blog-Last but not Least is the Sign Language blog, here I will be sharing about sign language, the deaf, the Deaf culture, history of the d/Deaf, and hearing loss with you. It is a fascinating topic.
Writing, Contests, Next Week
I have been writing a lot! I am telling you, I have been writing a ton. Soon, you will be able to follow links to our website, our other blogs, and helium and see tons and tons of writing.
So, hopefully it all starts paying off.
I did win a writing contest lately. I took third place and one ten dollars. While ten dollars isn't much, it is a start to a profitable writing career. I just hope that I can find a balance between writing and crafting. I have always wanted to be a writer, but I love the way that I feel as an artisan and crafter. I love creating new and beautiful things, and don't want that to end because of my writing. We also hope to make money off of that someday, but that will never happen if I never have time to work on it!
Next week, my best friend from high school is flying from Michigan to Texas. She is bringing her three month old daughter with her. I am excited, I haven't seen her in about a year and it is fantastic that I get to meet her baby. She hasn't seen our baby since he was six weeks old! It will however be odd to have a baby baby in the house again. And Marcus has always been a good night time sleeper, I doubt that this baby is. Marcus slept eight hours by time he was four weeks old....
So, hopefully it all starts paying off.
I did win a writing contest lately. I took third place and one ten dollars. While ten dollars isn't much, it is a start to a profitable writing career. I just hope that I can find a balance between writing and crafting. I have always wanted to be a writer, but I love the way that I feel as an artisan and crafter. I love creating new and beautiful things, and don't want that to end because of my writing. We also hope to make money off of that someday, but that will never happen if I never have time to work on it!
Next week, my best friend from high school is flying from Michigan to Texas. She is bringing her three month old daughter with her. I am excited, I haven't seen her in about a year and it is fantastic that I get to meet her baby. She hasn't seen our baby since he was six weeks old! It will however be odd to have a baby baby in the house again. And Marcus has always been a good night time sleeper, I doubt that this baby is. Marcus slept eight hours by time he was four weeks old....
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Contests, Writing and Letting Myself Become Over Stressed
I decided to do a Helium contest to see if I could win. I started late (three days late on a six day contest), but was still obsessed with winning. I didn't post in any blogs yesterday (and didn't get any traffic to any of my blogs or our website yesterday). I worked hard getting all of these articles written and for awhile I was second and then third and then second. I was going crazy, feeling terrible because I couldn't make it. I realized I was stressing myself out in some very extreme ways. Over something I can't control (you are given points or points are taken away by peer votes, nothing one can control, one can only do their best). My husband was like, well you started late, and are doing well, what happens if you do another one next week and kick butt, having the whole week to do it. Not sure if it will work out that way, right now I am in sixth place. But I decided to step aside, work on the blogs that I think are important, maybe get a page done on the website depending on how easy the baby makes it to write this afternoon, and remember what is important.
Our website, our blogs, then Helium, and ultimately the goal would be to make it to total freedom so that neither of us have to work our "serve the man" job.
Our website, our blogs, then Helium, and ultimately the goal would be to make it to total freedom so that neither of us have to work our "serve the man" job.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
New Wake Up Time
We have completed our first week of getting up at 4:30 (did you know that is before the crack of dawn, I didn't know that!). We decided to sleep in today. So, we stayed up late last night. And guess what happened! I woke up at 5 all by myself and couldn't get back to sleep! Went to bed at 12:30 got up at 5. I am going to be tired later today. But so far I have gotten 3 articles written for the challenge that I am attempting to complete.
I am hoping to write 25 articles about deafness and hearing loss (and related issues) and win a contest. Each article is rated by peers and you are given points (or points are taken away) according to where you end up ranked. The person with the highest score at the end of Wednesday earns 75 dollars.
Seventy five dollars would not be worth 25 articles, but it is Helium, so they will earn money forever (in theory). The article will earn a penny here, and one there, and one there.
I have been working adsense for a while now (about three months). I haven't put as much time into growing our website as I would have liked, so the traffic is at about 60 visits a month (which is really pathetic, I have blogs who are a few weeks old with more traffic!) In the three months that I have been working adsense, I have accumulated 1.26. Yep, a whole dollar, one quarter, and one penny. In the week I have been doing Helium, I have made 13 cents. It isn't a lot, but it should add up...
I am hoping to write 25 articles about deafness and hearing loss (and related issues) and win a contest. Each article is rated by peers and you are given points (or points are taken away) according to where you end up ranked. The person with the highest score at the end of Wednesday earns 75 dollars.
Seventy five dollars would not be worth 25 articles, but it is Helium, so they will earn money forever (in theory). The article will earn a penny here, and one there, and one there.
I have been working adsense for a while now (about three months). I haven't put as much time into growing our website as I would have liked, so the traffic is at about 60 visits a month (which is really pathetic, I have blogs who are a few weeks old with more traffic!) In the three months that I have been working adsense, I have accumulated 1.26. Yep, a whole dollar, one quarter, and one penny. In the week I have been doing Helium, I have made 13 cents. It isn't a lot, but it should add up...
Friday, August 10, 2007
b5media
I am thinking that I want to join b5media (a blog network), but am wondering if I am spreading myself too thin. I think it is this new found time that I have had this week. Getting up at 4:30 and having the baby get up at 9:00 gives me four to five hours (depending on exactly when he gets up) to write and post. I am working at lightning speed compared to what I have done in the past. It of course is something that needed to happen in order for our website and these blogs to grow though. Posting once or twice a week on the blogs and once or twice a month on the website just wasn't really cutting it.
So, with my new found time I am planning on posting everyday (at least Monday through Friday) on each blog that we own (sometimes Falon can post, but not as often as either of us would like). I plan on posting to Helium articles each day (Monday through Friday) and two new pages added to our website. So, far I have ideas backed up for quite a ways, so it should be awhile before I run out of pages to add to our website. I am also reading e-mails for money (and actually making some).
I am excited about the opportunity that b5media could have for me (depending on whether or not I am excepted), but I am hesitant to join right now. I don't want to give up any of the other work that I am doing. At the same time it is a large commitment. I would have to make six to fifteen posts a week for my b5media blog. Part of me wants to jump at it, like some large challenge that will work me toward my goals, other parts of me cower in fear. (These are the negative thoughts I talked about today on the Thought Provokers blog). I say to myself, "what if I am not good enough? What if they don't want me or my ideas?" Of course, I would live if they didn't want me. And I would actually not be any worse off then I already am.
Maybe I shouldn't wait the week that I thought about waiting. Maybe I should go for it...What do you think? Should I go for it, or should I continue to be timid and fearful? (Answer below in the comments section).
So, with my new found time I am planning on posting everyday (at least Monday through Friday) on each blog that we own (sometimes Falon can post, but not as often as either of us would like). I plan on posting to Helium articles each day (Monday through Friday) and two new pages added to our website. So, far I have ideas backed up for quite a ways, so it should be awhile before I run out of pages to add to our website. I am also reading e-mails for money (and actually making some).
I am excited about the opportunity that b5media could have for me (depending on whether or not I am excepted), but I am hesitant to join right now. I don't want to give up any of the other work that I am doing. At the same time it is a large commitment. I would have to make six to fifteen posts a week for my b5media blog. Part of me wants to jump at it, like some large challenge that will work me toward my goals, other parts of me cower in fear. (These are the negative thoughts I talked about today on the Thought Provokers blog). I say to myself, "what if I am not good enough? What if they don't want me or my ideas?" Of course, I would live if they didn't want me. And I would actually not be any worse off then I already am.
Maybe I shouldn't wait the week that I thought about waiting. Maybe I should go for it...What do you think? Should I go for it, or should I continue to be timid and fearful? (Answer below in the comments section).
Thursday, August 9, 2007
The Future of My World
I don't make more then a few cents a day working on my many endovovers. I hope to change that. I haven't found a schedule that works as well as it needs to be for me to be posting here and working on the website. I have now posted on Helium everyday since the start of the week. I am hoping, however to post everyday on the website (www.falonofthetower.com) as well as on our blogs (The Mommy Page, 1001 Things I Hate About Living With My Mom, The Fattest Diary, The Sign Language Blog, Beautiful Beads, and Thought Provokers), and Helium where I have started writing articles.
In addition to that, I am hoping to finish my first children's book by the end of September. This is a very hard goal and means I need to work on it at least a little bit each day.
Top it all off with a needy (as in doesn't want to be put down) one year old, the needs of a 48 year old handicapped woman, and a husband and I am very busy.
Such as life...
In addition to that, I am hoping to finish my first children's book by the end of September. This is a very hard goal and means I need to work on it at least a little bit each day.
Top it all off with a needy (as in doesn't want to be put down) one year old, the needs of a 48 year old handicapped woman, and a husband and I am very busy.
Such as life...
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
Morning
I am not sure why God created mornings. But even though he did, I have always hated them. In my schooling years I would stay up late, and get up at the last second. Throw on some clothes, or take on of those two minute showers depending on how close I cut it. Then I would walk or ride my bike to school. I refused to ride the bus. It was that the bus stop was four blocks (in the opposite direction as the JH and HS), it left at 7:30am. To catch the bus, and make sure that you got there early enough that you didn't miss it (it sucked the first time I got there and missed it and had to walk the four blocks home and then the seven blocks or so to school) you had to leave my house at 7:15. To make it to school on time walking straight there (which was about seven blocks, and just under 3/4 of a mile) I had to leave the house by 7:50. So, I caught the bus twice (and missed it that once) and from then on, I got myself to school. I never socialized before school, because I never gave myself that much time.
College was much the same when I did have morning classes. I always tried to schedule them later in the day, after my first year. First year second semester my first class started at 12.
Moving on in life didn't help much. When I worked, I was often up at seven so that I could get to work by seven thirty (I don't know why but I was chosen as opener a lot). I would drink a lot of coffee (I worked the Starbucks counter in Target). However, my husband and I have always been naturally drawn to a second shift life. Together we choose to get up later then most and to go to sleep later then most.
What's the point? It's 5:06am and I am getting up. Nope, I am not getting ready to go to bed, but getting ready for the day instead! And I have been up for a half an hour! My husband will be working 6-5:30 M-F and to spend the optimum amount of time with him I need to move to that shift too. Which means getting up at 4:30 and going to bed at 10 or 10:30. I just can't believe it!
Well speaking of that time I wanted to spend with him...
College was much the same when I did have morning classes. I always tried to schedule them later in the day, after my first year. First year second semester my first class started at 12.
Moving on in life didn't help much. When I worked, I was often up at seven so that I could get to work by seven thirty (I don't know why but I was chosen as opener a lot). I would drink a lot of coffee (I worked the Starbucks counter in Target). However, my husband and I have always been naturally drawn to a second shift life. Together we choose to get up later then most and to go to sleep later then most.
What's the point? It's 5:06am and I am getting up. Nope, I am not getting ready to go to bed, but getting ready for the day instead! And I have been up for a half an hour! My husband will be working 6-5:30 M-F and to spend the optimum amount of time with him I need to move to that shift too. Which means getting up at 4:30 and going to bed at 10 or 10:30. I just can't believe it!
Well speaking of that time I wanted to spend with him...
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
Thinking for a Change
I have started reading Thinking for a Change by John Maxwell.
I have known for a long time that I suffered from negative thinking. I was one of the biggest pessimists that I knew for a long time (now I am familiar with someone who is a "realist" by his definition and is a bigger pessimist then I ever was). I knew that being a pessimist was limiting where I was going.
The second thing I knew that was limiting me was fear. I was afraid of rejection and therefore I didn't do things that I should have. I didn't send my book out for I was afraid that no one would want it. I have deleted poems, short stories, and book ideas because of that same fear. Therefore, I never went anywhere.
Reading this book has highlighted additional areas where my thinking has kept me unsuccessful. I have small picture thinking, I am afraid of looking at the big picture. I am still not quite sure how to get past this, I just know that I must in order to go all of the places that I wish to be.
I certainly haven't gotten all the way through the book and therefore don't really know what else it will bring up, but I do know that I want to be a successful person who has more then enough financially and who feels satisfied in other areas as well.
I have known for a long time that I suffered from negative thinking. I was one of the biggest pessimists that I knew for a long time (now I am familiar with someone who is a "realist" by his definition and is a bigger pessimist then I ever was). I knew that being a pessimist was limiting where I was going.
The second thing I knew that was limiting me was fear. I was afraid of rejection and therefore I didn't do things that I should have. I didn't send my book out for I was afraid that no one would want it. I have deleted poems, short stories, and book ideas because of that same fear. Therefore, I never went anywhere.
Reading this book has highlighted additional areas where my thinking has kept me unsuccessful. I have small picture thinking, I am afraid of looking at the big picture. I am still not quite sure how to get past this, I just know that I must in order to go all of the places that I wish to be.
I certainly haven't gotten all the way through the book and therefore don't really know what else it will bring up, but I do know that I want to be a successful person who has more then enough financially and who feels satisfied in other areas as well.
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